And breathe.... However technical, exhaustingly physical, poetically complex and bilingual the show demands us to be, the hardest thing t the moment is dealing with the emotional impact the soul of the work is having on me. Each word creates an internal war within, reveberating painful memories, coming face to face with years of denial and another journey on the path to self acceptance. Realising that most of my disability, doesn't come from anywhere else but the attitudes of others. Working so hard to make sure the show becomes what we want and need it to be x